“This might sound crazy, but… be wrong. Make a mistake. He’s so concerned with being right. Even the struggle in this one, it’s about how to be right. His biggest struggle is just being the best he can be, and if he doesn’t achieve that, he really beats himself up. His moral compass is so sound, you rarely see him make a mistake. It’s everyone around him dropping the ball. So it would be nice to see a little bit of human error or a human flaw, just immaturity or foolishness, an ego, something.”—
I really like hearing Chris Evans talk about Steve. I think he gets him, and he says wonderful, insightful things about his character. but I disagree with him about his assessment of Steve in the context of his stories, i.e., that they’re somehow limited because his moral compass is sound, because he has an inherent goodness to him, because he rarely acts in the wrong.
here’s the thing: Steve Rogers is good, and that opens up countless stories about him, because the world he lives in is not. neither the one he was born into (no matter how idealized by later generations) or the one he woke up to. the struggle to be allowed to be good and righteous may look different in different times, but it exists in both, and Steve has a place in both.
there are so many heroes who subvert 1940s comic book heroism. there are heroes who are deeply flawed as ordinary human beings. there are heroes who are unable to escape from dark, tragic pasts themselves and so attempt to spare others. there are heroes who struggle to recognize what is right. there are heroes who straddle the lines between heroism and pragmatism and villainy.
(some of these heroes are Steve’s teammates.)
I love the concept of heroes and what makes them. I love that all these heroes exist; they are all worth exploring. they also have been explored. they encompass the majority of modern heroes. Steve, as such a classic superhero, as a hero who is not deeply flawed as a human; whose past was a hardship but a hardship shared with millions of other Americans of his time; who recognizes right and wrong easily; who simply does what is right, in himself subverts what it is to be a modern hero.
I don’t want Steve Rogers to have an ego. I don’t want him to be immature or foolish. I want to know how a world expecting to see these things in a man who has been given the things Steve has been given and lost the things Steve has lost reacts to him, and how he reacts to them in turn. I want to see a country that understands and embraces Iron Man struggle with how and whether to understand and embrace Captain America. I want to know how Steve chooses to continue to be Captain America without compromising who he is: a good man.
this is really why I fell in love with Steve, because I think the films get this. they understand this conflict and how not to make Steve into some ridiculous paragon of a hero that we cannot recognize or desire. he does have flaws. he’s motivated by doing the right thing in joining the war (and eventually becoming Cap), but Bucky rightly points out his need to prove himself. he grieves for what he’s lost to the point that bitterness overwhelms his ability to see the good in the modern world or his place in it. he really beats himself up when he cannot be his best, this is a flaw. his righteousness does not guarantee him happiness. he’s a wounded warrior who doesn’t bleed on other people, to borrow Evans’ own words — which may stem from his ability to put other people before himself, but is also about his difficulty in connecting with others through shared pain, in putting himself first when he ought to.
and yet, he does always put other people first, every time, without fail. THAT IS SO INTERESTING. don’t tell me that it’s not. because it resonates with me, and perhaps with a lot of people, because I think people generally strive to have clear moral compasses, and to follow them, and Steve Rogers makes that seem possible in a world comprised of misdirection. possible for ourselves and for the people we see in the position of changing the world for the better. we no longer have many superheroes in that particular position, who represent what Steve represents. and I like having a hero to tell that story.
“If people were always kind and obedient to those who are cruel and unjust, the wicked people would have it all their own way: they would never feel afraid, and so they would never alter, but would grow worse and worse. When we are struck at without a reason, we should strike back again very hard; I am sure we should—so hard as to teach the person who struck us never to do it again.”—Jane Eyre (via bananaleaves)
People who are highly sensitive, often struggle with the following:
1. They are easily overwhelmed, and often feel stressed through being overstimulated: That is, they often feel exhausted, stressed, worn out and worn down by processing so much detail - or through vicariously experiencing too much pain in the lives of others.
2. They are more personally affected by others’ emotions: Thus, they find it hard to detach themselves, or throw off the feelings and heartache of others. Instead, they tend to absorb anger, pain and distress when others around them are experiencing these.
3. They need more time and space for themselves: In order to restore their boundaries, to refresh their minds and renew their energy, highly sensitive people need to retreat, and to spend time alone. Unfortunately, others may judge them as being unsociable as they don’t understand their need to withdraw.
4. They may feel driven by unhealthy perfectionism: They often have unrealistic expectations, and are harsh, unforgiving and demanding of themselves. This is because they overanalyse, and worry about what other people think and want. (Related to this, many highly sensitive people also suffer from low self-esteem.)
5. They may feel out of sync with the people around them: The western world values extroverted people who are confident, lively and highly sociable. This can add extra pressure to more sensitive people who are cautious, and careful of the judgments of others. They can also feel they’re seen as being too sensitive, or as too emotional, or not tough enough.
I hope you love your life now, like I love mine I hope the painful memories only flex their power over you a little of the time We held on to hope of better days coming And when we did we were right I hope the people who did you wrong Have trouble sleeping at night